I had never been tramping in my life when, one day, I decided to go and see some mountains. I was 24 and had my first real job and my first real disposable income and a vague idea that I liked the outdoors, even though I didn’t know it very well. I Googled all the Great Walks to see which one looked best in photos, and I wrote on Facebook: “I’m going to tramp the Routeburn. Anyone want to come?”
It was not a great proposition for any of my friends. I had zero outdoor skills. I was a giant nerd. I had never walked for a whole day. But an acquaintance replied – Lynda was in – and six months later, we were in a minivan bumping along a gravel road outside of Glenorchy.
I hoisted my pack in the track car park. The weight was funny – not quite balanced. Every step I took felt awkward.
Admittedly, my preparation had been overenthusiastic in some ways and stupid in others. I thought it was necessary to have a change of clothes for each day. I took an entire loaf of bread and an entire jar of peanut butter. I was smart enough to decant wine into a plastic bottle, but not smart enough to take whisky instead. All this stuff I chucked into my pack willy-nilly, effectively preventing me from finding anything I wanted.
But I quickly forgot about the lopsided weight. When you’re from Auckland, beech forest is astonishing. Tiny leaves floated down on me like confetti, turning gold when they passed through sunbeams. I caught glimpses of the Route Burn through the trees, a river the colour of a glacier heart. Where I’m from, rivers are brown.
We stopped so often to stare at things, immobilised by wonder, that it was a surprise to arrive at Falls Hut in the middle of the afternoon. I spent the rest of the daylight gazing down to the flats, the river a coil of silver winding through them. Looking was like eating or drinking, sating a hunger I didn’t know I had.
The next morning, the sky was lower, and as we climbed, the Route Burn became narrower, leaping from pool to pool. Wind ruffled the surface of a dark lake, turning it to beaten metal. My pack settled closer on my shoulders.
The drizzle started before we reached the top of the pass, and then became steady rain. I didn’t know if I should worry about the fact it was raining, so I worried extra to compensate. My running shoes squelched with every step. Cloud enclosed us. I had no idea where I was going or how long it would take to get there. I didn’t have a map. In the top pocket of my bag, the ink was running on my printout of the DOC track description.
Then the mist swept aside, and I saw forest below, coating the downward slopes like moss, and the shore of a lake, its shallows glowing turquoise as though lit from within. Rain dripped down the back of my neck, but I no longer cared.
The weather cleared to a fiercely bright morning. Walking out, we finally saw the Darrens, the object of my desire, but by now I was so drunk on marvellous views that I could barely register them. I was tired to my bones. I fell asleep on the bus to Te Anau.
After that, tramping in summer became a regular thing. The Routeburn had been expensive and difficult, but it had also opened a door of possibility. Now, I knew that I could challenge my body – not just my brain. In fact, I’d found something to do that didn’t require my brain at all. Tramping let me tune into sensation rather than thought.
Now, nine years later, I always pack whisky and maps. Lynda’s one of my best friends. I wear the same clothes for a week at a time. And at any moment, I can look down in my memory to Lake Mackenzie glowing in the rain, the clouds parting for a moment to show me where I’m going.
– Rebekah White is the editor of New Zealand Geographic

